Saturday, December 03, 2011

alright, i hav alr sat for the last paper that i take as an undergraduate! i have graduated unofficially! WHEEE!insomnia hit me last night. hell terrible:( only managed to fall aslp 3ish and woke up at 7. awake till NOWWW. lol. im a superwoman! haha.

3.5 years in ntu has been rather a ride. i went to the school attached and leaving the school attached but with a different guy. i saw myself crumble in the first year and was on an emotional roller coaster in the subsequent years. when i stopped hoping and had resigned to fate, he appeared in my final year. i think he is the best gift that ntu has given me. haha. sometimes im afraid that i have fallen too deep, too fast :x when im alone, the previous relationship trauma would remind me once in a while that i shouldnt think that we would hav a future together:x when im with him, he kinda reassures me with his actions. sometimes im afraid that i appear to be too needy etc that he might not like it. LOL. shit. where is the cool me.tskk. i dont how this would be, but all i wanna say is that im really glad to have met u and proud to hav u as my bf. u are really an awesome bf(: (sometimes i feel that i said this too many times that it has lost its meaning and is annoying:( but this is really how i feel and i suck at keeping my feelings. maybe i should refrain from expressing my feeling, thoughts etc:x)

heh. enough of praising that stupidboy. let me go on with my rather eventful day today. i went back home tgt with him to meet my family. i was surprised to see so many of them at home and soooo many gifts for me from US! wahahahaha. im super super happy. i have a brand new makeup set! yayyyness. we had a mini birthday celebration for my ah ma too cos i didnt attend the birthday celebration that was held abt two weeks ago. im glad that my ah ma likes the durian cake and i think shes rather pleased w my bf. at least she doesnt think that hes mcp! heh. but she did warn me abt the possibility of him changing his heart after i enter the workforce  while hes still in sch. i guess it bound to happen theres no way we can stopped it right? anw i guess the meeting was alright and he finds my ah ma cute. LOL.

later in the night, there was an impromptu meeting with my BFFs. it was super rather and we had full attendance! i think we are beginning to get closer all because of the constant bullshitting on whatsapp! HAHA. but im really enjoying myself with them be in on whatapp or hanging out with them! im really happy to have them as my BFF till now! its been close to a decade! i used to think that im not needed and thus drift away from them intentionally but aft i broke up in year one, i realised that they were there for me. im also used to telling them every single thing about me because they are opened to me too. we talk abt which guy we have crush on, our progress with them, our encounters with the weirdos in our daily environment etc. we gonna have slumber party on new year's eve and they are gonna wat hav a shuffling competition!-.- i need to youtube! LOL. dies. i suck at this. can i withdraw from this and join u girls again aft that? LOL.

okay i think i should slp so that i can accompany my grandmother to the doc tml. nights world!<3

Posted by van at 3:04 AM