Friday, March 26, 2010
i
hav come to realisation that the only way to actually move on and look forward is not to compare
wat u used to have w
wat u
hav now. comparing makes u feel even more miserable. u will tend to look back and think
abt the-oh-so-sweet memories that do not exist nor belong to u now. why make yourself feel so unwanted n undervalued when
wat matters most is the future? who cares
wat happened in the past?
i used to be very foolish by cutting myself,
emo near his place, re-read all the letters and i took 4 long yrs to forget a guy.
im not
goin to do that anymore.
im 21 now. i should be much more sensible than i was 7yrs ago. why waste time grieving on the lost of someone special when
theres soo much more for me to hold on to right before my eyes?
im not
goin to spend a lifetime or rather 4yrs to forget
gh.its such a waste of time. he would be the one of the best memories that i ever had but i dun intend to make him my
bestest memories(:
L.I.B.E.R.A.T.E.D is the word(:
Posted by van at 3:42 PM
Friday, March 19, 2010
i jus hav this sudden urge to blog. i found out that he has alr moved on w another girl on sunday. i think he also has issues w it cos the way he sounded like he is afraid that the current might fail. mayb like me, he believed that we were meant for each other but the fact is otherwise. i duno how our lives are gonna be from this pt on; will we be able to commit fully in our new relationship and give our 110% like we did when we were tgt? for me, im not very sure. believe it or not, im dying to move on. i want someone special to be there for me always. i actually disliked being single. zz. mayb cos i had him w me all these while so the impact is rather great but whatever it is, im determined to moved on.
we mentioned that if we are really meant to be we would be back tgt one day. that sentence made me feeel good all over again. im not saying that im still hanging onto the lil hope that i hav. it jus made me realised that theres no pt feeling upset abt it. if we are destined to be tgt, we are. if we are meant to go one big round to realise that we hav alr met the best that we could hav, so be it. let nature tks its course.
i still insist on changing email cos i got bored of the previous one. HAHAH. addd meee(:
ohhhh im a cooools kid now. i hav twitter!! lol
agh: to make ur present relationship work, u need to let go of the failure. dun hurt her. im sure u wouldnt want her to be like u a few yrs back(:
im sorry for the rude, hurting comments. like you said, im stronger than wat i think. mayb its true. hah. despite that fact, i still need a bf. lol. anyhow, be brave and tk the step out to meet other photographers! where is the garang spl that i once know? side track a lil, i nv tot u would hav difficulty in adapting to changes. aft being w u when all the dramas from ns happened, i realised that you are someone who needs your friends alot. this is why you cannot adapt to new camps asap. i guess many are like that tooo. it gave me a chance to be aunty annie cos ur life is tooo perfect unlike mine. hopefully my broooooo will really change. okay back to wat i was saying, be more confident of ur works. i have seen them they are not that bad. i guess there are more to learn in photography so keep exploring and learning!! you will make it thru. hav faith!
ahhh canon in D.. those were the days yea?((:
Posted by van at 6:27 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2010
this is soooo true. hahaha. well, i had some issues this week and they are solved(: i was jus thinking why the damn horoscope thinks that gemini and capricorn are not compatible and this is wat i found:
Capricorn + Gemini
Earth + Air = Dust
Gemini is likely to feel that you drag them down, because their energy is light, airy, and often scattered. Being grounded is not a natural state for Gemini. And of course earth and air are very different: they create dust, which can make it hard to see or find your way.
There are good work connections with this match, but it may not offer much in the way of common interests or similar personality traits.
You are very focused on assets and finances. The two of you will need to do a lot of talking about what you want, materially, and what you want out of a relationship—and about how those things can be tied together. These are key issues, and you’ll need to work them out at the start.
You will be more comfortable dealing with practical things, where Gemini will be expressive, creative and communicative, but also no idiot when it comes to making money. You could learn many lessons here.
Another aspect of your different attitudes to money and financial security comes clear in the area of spending. Gemini spends generously, but you tend to count the pennies and be far more frugal. You’ll need to make sure a fight for control over the money doesn’t develop.
Incidentally, the sexual sector of Gemini just happens to be Capricorn, so your connection between the sheets will be good. You’ll be entertained and relaxed by Gemini’s playful sexual antics. This side of your partnership will offer you more than you initially think.
One thing you could help Gemini with is restless thoughts. If you can get into their mind space, you may be able to help them clarify their direction. This is because your thought processes are deep, where Gemini continually skims the surface. Slow and steady Saturn could be what anchors this relationship long term.
Geminis born between 13 May and 21 May are mentally oriented, and you will get on especially well with them if you are interested in many different subjects. Communication will be the focus for these people.
Geminis born between 22 May and 1 June are livewires, and will require a great deal of juggling from you. Their agenda will take them all over the place, at all sorts of times, and often you won’t see the rhyme or reason in it. Adjusting your lifestyle to fit in with theirs could be a major problem.
Geminis born between 2 June and 21 June have a special attraction to you. These people have a soothing touch that can restore your weary mind. Even though they’re highly strung, they do tend to know what to say, and when to say it, to make you feel great.
gh is born on the 30th may. this is soooooo true. honestly no joke.
http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp
Posted by van at 8:44 PM
Thursday, March 04, 2010
i met up w bff last night. as usual, we talked abt relationships. rene and i admitted our fears. i guess there are jus some things tat u hate to admit, fear being laughed at. i have things that i wan to do that i tend to hide it, even to him. these are the things that i wan to do yet i have my constraints. its not that i dun wan to make an effort in make -up, coook, dress up. clothes wise, my family is rather conservative plus i am really not one who will follow the fashion. i jus like to dress how i wan tat i think i will look good in. i hav my own principles when it comes to dressing. it may sound shallow if i say it but i dun think anyone has the right to stop me from thinking this way. if u cannot change someone, adapt to it. everyone is made differently for a reason. i guess this simple fact needs to be drilled into some people.
iprobablylovedumorethanudid which is sooooo wrong. hahahaha. i think i can open my childcare centre:D
Posted by van at 11:52 AM