Wednesday, April 29, 2009
so i didnt post last weekend. y? cos i had papers on mon n tues this week.my exam was officially over on tues!im so glad yet a lil worried. why? results. yes results. sigh. right now im trying not to think abt it but i think its quite impossible cos it will be out on 22nd may! omg. thats sooo soon. arg.
on a lighter note, i got called down for a job interview!im seriously not so looking forward to it cos it will be a new environment and i probably will be alone during lunch.:( i hope there is enough work to keep me busy so the time will pass quickly! hhaahah. i need moneyyyyyyy! oh my dad is bringing me to aust for holiday!haha. he is goin there for some darts competition and he said i hav nv taken a plane b4 so i shld go experience n my flight ticket will be free for this whole yr only. WHY ONLY THIS WHOLE YR? cos it is the last yr im eligible for the free flight tickets. yes, once im 21 im no longer considered as my daddy's child.how sad.i will be considered as an adult. damn. i bet everyone who has wished to grow up faster when they were young is regretting now.time flies far too fast. really. i jus wan to be a lil girl. hahahahaah.
anw i went ps w bf n had lasagna!he brought me to the lan shop to play left for dead!hahah so funnn. hehe. i duno wat to type alrrr. tata
Posted by van at 3:52 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
bel amuses me sometimes. she had her 1st paper on tues and the day b4 she asked me if i had paper on tues as well n i said no. she went "HOW CAN U NOT HAVE PAPER WHEN EVERYONE ELSE DOES!" my initial response was this girl is crazy.probably she had studied too much that she had forgotten that not everyone has paper on the same day unlike the good old days in rj.
anyway i had my first paper ytd. it was math. the mcq was CRAZY. it is really too CRAZY. the lecturer told us that there will be 35% of mcq and i tot the best bargain/heart-pumping breakdown of the mcq would be 7 mcq each worth 5marks. well i was sooo wrong. there is a even better bargain/heart-pumping breakdown and that is 3mcq each worth 5marks and 2 mcq each worth TEN marks. tell me if u would be shivering/ panicking when u are choosing ur ans.hahah
i didnt tk note of the marks when i was in the exam hall. it was when dear liliam told me abt it.she was checked her ans w me n they are the same as mine. she was said that i was too desperated that i had to use calculator to choose a more correct ans cos it worthed ten marks. that stunned me. serious. there was this ten marks mcq that i couldnt confirm my ans and i had to skip it. i think if i had known the weightage of it i probably would hav panicked.overall the paper was alright.
on a lighter note, i went home w bf ytd! heheh. he is at yishun now. on my way there in the train i smelt chicken pie from polar but i duno why it smelt like lasangna aft awhile. aft that i was craving for it but decided to put that thought aside till aft exam. when i reached the interchange that piggy was there n he wanted me to run so that we might be able to catch the bus. anw i didnt i was there in time to see the bus leave. hahaha.
when i was busy eating the tibit that he had bought me bf asked me this " is anyone in the mood for lasagna?" OMG i seriously think he can read me! we actually wanted to settle our dinner at pizza hut today but... sigh.nvm
anyhow, we went to hg mall to have ice waffleeee ytd!!yeaaaaaa!its been sooo longg. b4 that we walked past kfc and we saw the promotional meals and we almost wanted to settle our dinner there!i was like lets challenge the meal for 3person one day! hahahahahaha. bf was doubted me when i said that. he said i always say im very hungry and gave him the impression that i can eat a cow but i can only eat the horn which i do not think its edible. hehe. i think he spoils me. that is why i lost my less-chubby face:(
anyyyyway i did 4lect notes today. i dunoo if i had absorbed themmmm.. whateverrrr. im hungry now. tata
Posted by van at 10:57 PM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
i hope this will keep u going.COME' ON!
Miley Cyrus The Climb Lyrics:
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' but
there's a voice inside my head sayin' you'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels lost with no direction
My faith is shakin but I
I gotta keep tryin
Gotta keep my head held high
[Chorus]
there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's the Climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
but these are the moments that
I gotta remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going and I
I gotta be strong
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/PsXY ]
Just keep pushing on
[Chorus]
Cause' there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waiting on the other side
it's the climb
Yeah, yeah
[Chorus]
there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
ALway's gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waiting on the other side
it's the Climb
Yeah, yeah, yeaa
Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,
baby
It's all about
all about the climb
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith
Whoa, o whoaaa!
Lyrics: The Climb, Miley Cyrus [end]
Posted by van at 9:56 PM
Monday, April 13, 2009
alright i'm blogging from my hp.sigh i'm amazingly careless!omg.seriously, i cannot believe i'm so careless.i feel tat i'm not focused.i cant possibly go for my paper like tat!i need to get back n concentrate on my tasks!COME ON!
Posted by van at 1:15 AM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
i hav been trying to get back to where i was a few yrs back. abt 3 yrs back? i begin to think that actually im not that great aft all. where form m i trying to get back? this how i hav been playing. this is me in hockey. i hav nv played anything better than this. im lousy. this lousy. wat national player, youth squad.. i hav nv been in those teams. i hav nv achieved those. that wasnt me! i have been deceiving others. i have been too egoistic!i have been lying to make myself sound good. the real me is far from wat ppl noe abt me. why. why is this happening?! why do i keep trying and fall even harder?when i saw a glimpse of hope, i held it tightly but i fell even harder. am i putting too much pressure on myself or im jus not up to it?
maybeishouldjustgiveup
Posted by van at 9:48 PM
i started off pretty bad today. i kept slacking n of cos i wasnt very productive:( anyway i think i did 5tut. they are super longgg. my right hand felt so tired that i had decided to call it a day. i hav two more tut n i will start conquering the questions in the textbook. i will own dem! i will press on. i will make all those stay-home to mug weekends worthy!aft all these shit i will be able to enjoy. i will be able to go shopping and hang out w bf! i havent caught a movie in a month? thats very long considering that bf n i used to watch movie almost every weekends? OH wats more frequent for us is..... GOOD FOOD. hahahaha. i feel guilty every time we go out. WHY? cos he pays for the meals most of the time. i wan to pay but he wouldnt allow. his ns pay is abt the same as my monthly allowance:s
im craving for waffle icecream at gelareeeeeee...
i should slp now n finish those two jackass! i will win the battle!
Posted by van at 12:58 AM
Friday, April 10, 2009
i always thought that i was naive to believe that if a playboy meets someone who really make him go crazy he will mend his way. one of my ex used to be a playboy and he flirts alot. he was hardly serious w any gf that he had. he got attached in jc and the relationship seems very stable to me. i think he has changed. im happy for him. hahaha. i think his gf is pretty and they are a perfect match! i wished i had her figure and looks! lol. joking. i should be contented w wat i have right?i also hav a nice bf n we are doin fine:D
i sent bf this ytd:
when we met, it was a coincidence
when we fell in love, it was magical
when we are tgt, it is a lifetime
i find this rather hmm weird.hahahaha. he loves it tho. alright i need to get back to math. i think im losing my math brain cellss..lol TATAATTATATA ( does that look like one of the consensus sequence in the promoter of bacteria?)(:
Posted by van at 3:26 PM
Monday, April 06, 2009
y is it that i used to be able to leave well without contacting n seeing my bf but now i cant?i realised that aft the big quarrel that we had i became more needy. i became more dependable on him which i find it very irritating. i feel like a pest.
why is it i tend to jump into conclusion, make myself upset over nothing n vent anger on him when things werent what i thought it was?i dun like this side of me.
argggggggggg vanessatan i hate u
Posted by van at 8:17 PM
Sunday, April 05, 2009
omgggggggggg livejournal is dowwnnnnnnnnnnnnn. LOUSY
Posted by van at 6:18 PM
okay here i am again. i dun really hav the mood to blog so i guess i will jus do some listing.
a rather good match today n hopefully i can play even better and finish the season well
lagging in revision:(
didnt meet bf today:((
exam is coming
the weather is humid n i am dying
im thinking of staying over in sch cos there are way too many distractions and things to attend to at home.
but i dun get to see my bf if i dun go home:(
im worried abt exammmmmmmmm
bs 107 changed to fully mcq but my senior said it will be mcq with mutiple ans!it is not u shade any of it n u get the pts. u hav to shade the correct ans/answers. more or less ZERO.OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG kill me for tking this module!i jus wan to get a b for it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
done bye
Posted by van at 12:40 AM
Thursday, April 02, 2009
when i read the blogs of those who are currently trng w the youth squad or the national team, it makes my heart aches. why so? there is this tiny part in me that yearns to train with them and to hone my skills. i left the team without informing my coach will he still take me in after my university?if he doesnt, i had brought this upon myself.
to add on, what kind of state would i be in after four long years? slow, unskilled. looking at how i hav been playing in the premier matches, i know i can never make it back there again. i just know..
Posted by van at 1:29 PM