Monday, September 28, 2009
soon it will be 5mths aft we broke up. it is really fast. i survived the 3mths holidays rotting, emo-ing at home and attending some outings ocassionally. jus last wed, he msn me. it still hit me hard. sadness drowned me completely. it is hard but i noe i am stronger than this. my angel is going uk this wed and joel contacted me all of the sudden. haha. he said he realised he still cares abt me tho we didnt contact for a long while. how funny eh?i duno. now my focus is on jcrc, schwork and hockey. no more u-know-who. i realised its impossible as he wants a christian partner. im soo gonna drift away from him as he is kinda try out w another girl. yep. i dun wan to be called the 3rd party aft an awful exp in jc. yep. thats all. recess week is way to boring i think. hahaha.
wat a totally random and lame post eh? i seriously cant be bothered to organise my thoughts.
ps: i feel really happy for my frens who are attached! no hatred nor jealousy!heh. all the best my dear frens((:
Posted by van at 6:47 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
a quiz from fb:
What are the initials of the person you'll marry?- KW
Super mysterious and hard to read most of the time. Deep down they love you infinitely, but sometimes they have trouble showing it. Around their friends you may even seem invisible since you're not always the number one thing on their mind.
the description feels soo familiar. it is describing the guys that i kinda hav crushed/ interested in thus far. i absolutely dislike them even if i were to feel sth i will WILL get rid of it. yucks. totally dislike this kinda guys.
Posted by van at 2:12 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
sometimes i wld feel extremely low when he comes to my mind. there are other times where i am able to try to kick him out of my mind and continue w my work. i used to be very upset when i see other couples but recently, im jus envious and happy for them. i duno hw m i exactly coping w it. i jus hope that my life wld be smooth from now on so that i dun need a safety shelther.deep dwn i noe im still missing him. imm sorry if this disappionts anyone. i cant hlp it. he was there for me for five yrs.
Posted by van at 8:26 PM
Sunday, September 06, 2009
i just read my fren's blog and it reminded me that he used to tell me that ppl were looking at me. he wld always add this line behind "see, u are so beautiful that ppl are looking at u" (sth along that line) to him, i was good-looking, hot blah blah. he always praised me when i dressed up. okay end of post
Posted by van at 5:34 PM
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
its week four and im still lagging. hahaha. totally lost in lect today due to lack of slp anddddd missing the lect for tat mod last week. wonder why? I CLDNT WALK ON LAST TUES. zz. hahaha. nvm. now its recovery! i cant wait to runnnnnnn. hahaha. porky made me laugh hard ytd during econ lect. wana noe why? i went out to tk the forgotten present during econ lect. he msg me this" eh, how come u hav goodie bag?" damn uncle lah.HAHAHHAH. hmm i loveeeee my roooomiee! lol. she told me that shes in room more often these days to accompany meeee. yayaayyyyyy. LOVELOVE ROOOOMIEE!((:wat a random post but i dun careeeee((:
Posted by van at 4:25 PM