Sunday, August 21, 2011
shoooooo the lows that i felt two days ago. i am sorry if i had made anyone of you worried. heh. theres so much to do these days and im barely coping. i wan to be on task but yet i gave in to my random mood swings and laziness! HOWWWW?! arg. tml is another day of no mugging day! i would be meeting rene rene for shopping! HAHA. nice. i love it man. hopefully can get sth cheap! TOPSTOPSTOPS! THERE MUST BE NICE TOPS THAT I WILL BE ATTRACTED TO! no more dresses! whenever i online shop in the attempt to get more tops, i would end up getting dresses! this cant be! argggg. pray for nice tops tml and to get basics like inner tube, razor back. yepyep!(:
Posted by van at 12:02 AM
Thursday, August 18, 2011
i just feel like letting myself go and cry as much as i can. i feel so tired of holding back. bad day
Posted by van at 3:57 PM
maybe what others said about me is right. i am still living in the past. i am not moving forward. what am i to do when the memories are all so beautiful and it touches my heart and occasionally makes my heart wrench when i recall them? tell me what should i do when everything in the past seems better and more perfect than the present?
a dead sweet bf whom tried his best in putting that smile back on ur face when you are down.
a dead silly bf whom tried all ways to forget about you when u were a bitch.
a dead loving bf whom made the effort to wake up early just to make breakfast for you, travel just to bring u a little surprise, drew you the future with him in it.
maybe after 2 years plus, i am still not over.
Posted by van at 10:50 AM
Friday, August 12, 2011
done with first week of schh!! i went for my first hockey trng with xixi on monday late! hahaha. damn funny! im glad she enjoyed it!(: i had a hard time masking my skills! lol. we met up w rene rene aft our class and she was EARLY for the first time! HAHAHAH. she said it is the first and the last time that she would be on time!-.-
the rest of the days were rather boring except on thurs and today. bel and i went to jash after cheer training on thurs. jabril, one of the co-caps, offered to drive us to zouk after training. we did some stunts that we wanna teach the freshmen on freshmen welcome this coming wed. we had fun doing that cos we made the guys be the flyer while we girls are the bases. hahaha. had a good laugh. we then proceed on to recap on our basics such as elevator and extension. i fell on my first attempt doing elevator and extension. i felt really lousy cos the rest did them pretty smoothly! :( after that, we did reload then elevator, extension liberty etc. i am the only one who cannot lib without help. double :( i guess im not meant to be flyer and im too heavy for the bases. i wanna thank mark for being so encouraging and it really spurt me on. thank you very much! that training reminded me why i stayed on with the team when i kept failing. it was them, my team mates who kept me going(: xiexie!
anyhow, we head over to zouk after training. i was asked for my ic! i think its cos of my dressing that he tot i wasnt of age to enter the club. i didnt bring anything for the event cos i tot i had wearable clothes for the event. i had to borrow from belbel. lucky she has dresses if not i would hav wore tee and shorts. haha. so cui. the female freshmen were rather well dressed for the event. u could tell that they were heading to a club at one look. i duno if i should jump into conclusion that they are all clubbers or they had done well in mimicking one. heh.
we saw jonjon taking care of this p clan freshmen who was totally gone outside zouk. hah. terence, mark and i headed in first cos bel had to wait for des kho for her tix. we squeezed our way in and had a hard time looking for ppl from k clan. bel text me and asked me to look for des kho. it was so freaking hard cos everyone looks the same and there were 16 halls! i didnt manage to find him but guessed that she has met him as she had stopped replying me. wat a bitch right? tsktsk. while i was looking for des kho, this guy from hall 16 who is also my coursemate kept wanting to dance w me. i knew i would regret if i do so so i escaped to the podium with my freshmen. haha. i couldnt get high so i headed over to the bartender for some drinks with pork. i had 3 tequila shots at once. i was surprised that i didnt puke.haha. headed back to the podium to dance. one of the female freshmen was dancing so violently that many got hit by her. it was really uncomfortable with her around and it didnt help when we had limited space -.- i was almost pushed down on one occasion. this freshmen whom was said to be perverted was dancing behind me and i was so afraid! :x i couldnt wait for him to get off the podium. we took the last bus back to hall and the big dance action freshmen was GONE. she wanted to drink more and refused to go back to her room. she wanted to drink from the jar that this unknown guy was holding at the dance floor back in zouk. the funny thing was she didnt drink a lot and shes a clubber! she clubs at least twice a week! OMG. she goes to club to be taken advantage by guys. i heard from my yr two fren that her other fren who is in her batch gets tipsy and french guys and girls. this is crazy! i mean it is alright that you love to club but as girls, i feel that you should know how to take care of yourselves at such places. if u cannot drink so much, dont drink so much. you should know your limits. i told loo abt this and my opinions on such acts, he said im sensible. LOL. why does it sound like he nv knew this side of me?0.o
we went back to rj aft three yrs! rj has undergone hell lot of changes during this three years! we were like tourists visiting an attraction! HAHA. we took many photos and bump into roy and ivy. they have been keeping in contact with most of our classmates while we were pretty much in our own world.. heh. it has always been like this:) through them, i found out that poey and suelynn broke up, divya and boon han ended on a very bad note such that they refuse to talk to each other and the future plans of some of them. it is great to hear that they are all doing well in their fields! loo said i made him proud cos i came in w shit results and grad w decent grades. he even told my story of my fellow juniors!heh. even though i didnt get prefect score nor was it straight Bs, i was happy and still am.and oh he changed his opinion abt uni. he used to tell us that you can play a lot in uni now he said uni is no longer fun w everyone being so competitive! hah. sigh i miss everything about rj and i will always remember the times and the brilliant teachers i had:D anw, roy and ivy are still going strong! im so happy for them! they are soo cuteee!:D
on a serious note, i told loo that im thinking between mba and msc. he said msc quite useless and mba is better.he encourages me to take phd in chem. :s scaredd. i will see how it goes. meanwhile i shall check out the mas invitation for job application and see how it goes!
gonna go for steamboat with the freshmen tml, prayer at the temple on sun and night cycling next fri! my first and last night cycling event in hall! haha.no one can believe that i hav nv joined such events. heh.
anw, kerry told bel that i am too independent so guys dun dare to pursue me! HAHAH. he said that i have this aura that tends to push guys away. HAHAH. oh well.. whatever man. heh. kuai le jiu hao.wheeee.
Posted by van at 9:00 PM