Monday, August 30, 2010
mayb like bel said i still like him. the more i talk to him the more i feel upset. u noe that things are different and you are not expecting anything from him. it jus doesnt feel good to know that im really a history and that im jus another fren aft all that we had been thru tgt, all the time we had spent tgt. it jus doesnt feel good to noe all these are insignificant now.
ahh. screwed it
Posted by van at 8:17 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2010
i opened the box and read the contents of it ytd. give me a few more yrs and i will throw the box that contains 5yrs of memories and the roses away.
doing agm report now and hall foc is tml! omg. im dreadingg. cos sch is starting! shit.
Posted by van at 5:34 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2010
he came to talk to me a few days ago. i was nervous initially and felt rather comfortable and excited aft that. it felt like talking to a very good friend whom i hav lost contact with. i am sure i would feel the same if any of my good friend goes away for a loooong time and we didnt manage to talk during that period. it felt goood. that was also when he told me hes single and i guessed he is quite affected by the break up.he said im mre humourous now as compared to before. is it true? i thought ive always been like this?
i am glad that after all that has happened, the impression that we had left on each other is very much the same. we both still think highly of each other and this i thought is hard to come by. frankly speaking, i havent met anyone be it younger, older or same age attracts me like he does. okay, mayb bel's bf make the mark but he is one out of the so many guys i know. attraction here doesnt refer to physical attraction. i meant his character and personality. hes not perfect. he has his flaws and i was willing to accept it all. even when the relationship turned sour, i still loved him the same. till now, he is still someone i really admire. i guess it is this admiration that made me hopelessly in love in him. i guess this is why i still havent forgotten him. my character plays a part in this too. i am one who will give my all in a relationship if i really really love that person.i am incapable of withdrawing myself out of it fast and this is why i will hav times when i look back and wished that it was all a dream. HAHA. im okay lahh. jus ranting. heh. (:
Posted by van at 3:55 PM