Friday, September 30, 2011
and so rach finally said sth abt me being attached. she reminded me of the 5-yr lesson that i kinda paid heavily for. of cos i dun wan a repeat of whatever that has happened. like wat she said, all's gonna be good at the start. what is gonna happen later on, no one knows. i tot gh and i would last cos i tot we had a rather strong foundation etc. however i was terribly wrong. he still kinda left me for someone else. i am not sure if history gonna repeat or would i be dumped for another reason like incompatibility?
i always tot gh as someone really nice and sweet. one who knew me inside out. one who knew wat i want or need before i even opened my mouth. one who loved to give me small surprises. in the end, it had ended in a way i least expected it.
this bf, he is someone i never tot i wld meet. i always tot that i wld never meet someone as nice or nicer than gh. he took good care of me when i was unwell and when i had terrible cough. he made pipagao drink and honey water for me to ease my cough. when we were at pulau ubin, he was w me most of the time just so that i wouldnt feel left out or weird in the outing. he nv fail to make to laugh at his sillyness when we talk. he probably doesnt know me very well and may or may not give me small surprises like gh did but i know that he is trying his best to improve himself for me. he knew i cant stand it when ppl heck care abt studies so he tries to study and be hardworking.he knows that i want my own space and freedom so he doesnt restrict me even when i told him im gonna club w frens. he just didnt think it is safe for me to go esp when im going w a grp of girls. he still allows me to just that i have to promise not to drink too much and let him know when im home. hes really accommodating. compared to him, i feel lousy. it feels like he had done a zillion things for me, for this relationship while i had done none. i duno how long he would remain sweet and nice to me. i duno how long we would stay tgt or if we cld withstand being in different phases of life.
i do know if this were to end up the same as the previous, it would be a really huge blow and i guess i might take a longer time to recover:x very weak right? hahah. i wish us all the best!:D
Posted by van at 10:56 AM
Thursday, September 29, 2011
it gets annoying when ppl tells u that ur relationship is fake, not gonna last, dun be too serious etc. no form of encouragement at all. i feel that if u dun wanna encourage, u dun hav to discourage too. zz
Posted by van at 1:40 PM
Monday, September 26, 2011
its been a weeek since we got tgt and i cannot express how happy i have been for the past weeeek. hahah truly happy and feeel blissful? (: thank you. my eyelids are heavyyyyyyyyyy, update again some other time!:D
Posted by van at 1:03 AM
Monday, September 19, 2011
18th sept past midnight, i got attached. it is a day that i tot would never come. after all, no one really liked me since i broke up. i think whoever is watching this up there, pitied me and sent me him at my last year of university. HAHA. it has truly been an amazing ride from the point we know each other till now. ppl might think that we progressed a little too fast but hey can you ever put a schedule to the progress of your relationship? it is not like i dun think that we are too fast. i do but i guess it doesnt hurt taking it to the next level(: i feel that we should just let nature takes its course. when the feeling is there, just do it:D
i am happy that im attached aft soo long and this time this bf really treats me well. thank you for appearing(:
Posted by van at 9:59 AM