i duno wat to do.im reali afraid that i may not be able to make it at the end of next yr.i reali dun wana disappoint my dad.i hate to waste his money.if oni i can c wat wil happen in the future if i cont in jc n if i quit n go poly.i reali wan to so tat i can make my decision without any regrets.
i wonder hw do we noe if he/she is the right one for u?
i noe u r tryin to be der for me.thks.
Posted by van at 1:16 PM
HEADACHEEEEE!!omg.
Posted by van at 12:18 PM
las week his ct told him tat he might not be able to make it as he nids 5 more marks to get another H2 pass.his teacher said it wld be v difficult n he was vvv worried.
ytd during gp lesson, he called.he told me tat his ct told him tat for his case most probably will bring a gd news.he was elated.
congrats.
Posted by van at 12:05 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
im goin crazy!!im not doning well!!!i feel like going poly!sucksssssssss.can i not study??!!!!!assssssssss!!!!sigh.
Posted by van at 6:42 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
i knew he is busy right from the start.i need him during this period.tat's y im so upset by the fact tat he doesnt hav enuff time fior me.
i noe he wldnt read my blog even tho he did promise to tag my blog everyday.anw he hasnt been tagging for a long long time.
i noe der isnt any solutions to tis problem as he is always busy.
he's tking up mre n mre things to do.i jus hope tat he wldnt overwork n fall sick again.
as for me, i'll jus wait.
wait for his call/msg wait for e day he wld be free to tk me out or for jus a short meeting.
ps:to those frens who have been asking me out bt i've rejected, im sorry.im reali not in the mood for anyting aft my ah gong's death.i jus wan to kip my ah ma company so tat she wldnt think of my ah gong n cry all over again.im reali affected my his death.so much so tat i do not hav any mood to do anyting even my fav post exam activity-shopping.to my frens in sch, if u c me pulling a long face or brkdwn in sch, im sorry.i noe it wld affect ur moods as well bt i dun mean to do it.
Posted by van at 9:36 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
i jus call home.
i suddenly tot of my ah gong.
usually he wld b the one hu picks up the phone. nw, i can nv hear his voice...
ah gong, i hope u are well at the other world. imissyou.
Posted by van at 11:23 PM
my bf is super duper STUPID n has SERIOUS stm!
can some1 kill him? nono. invent some medicine to hav these things cured?
irritateddddd
Posted by van at 10:15 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
i miss ah gong.i reali do.
i wun hear him asking me to slp when i burn mid night oil. i wun c him in the morning when i go to sch. i wun be able to say bye to him whenever i go out. i wun be able to greet him. i wun be able to c him watching tv wif us. i wun be able to c him watching soccer alone in the middle of the night. i wun be able to watch world cup wif him n the rest. i wun be able to c him watching soccer wif my uncle n dad. i wun be able to c him sitting on the green chair in my uncle's rm whenever he is wacthing tv der. i wun be able to c him sitting on the wooden chair in the living rm. i wun be able to c him standing by the window watching my bro.
der's mani other things tat i wun be able to do when he's not around.
i regretted not sharing stuff with him.i always share it wif my ah ma.im not vvv close to him.im closer to my ah ma.
sigh.tk south zone colours for eg.i wore the full attire tat day n went to let my ah ma see bt not my ah gong.im not a gd grand-daughter.i can nv make it up to him.i reali regretted.
sigh.
Posted by van at 4:03 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
FIVE DAYS jus gone like tat.
i dun noe wat to say abt it.
i noe mre abt him aft his death. he's a GREAT MAN.
from tis, i noe who are those granduncles n grandaunties i shld respect.
it's so heart wrenching to noe tat whateva he had done for his siblings were appreciated. it's so heart wrenching to see my ah ma's face buried wif tears. it's so heart wrenching to noe tat my 3rd uncle cldnt get to c him for the last time. it's so heart wrenching to c my 3rd uncle coming out from the prison to pay his last respect to his father. it's so heart wrenching to noe tat my ah gong din get to c the day my 3rd uncle mend his ways. it's so heart wrenching to c every1 crying.
we noe we shldnt cry bt it isnt easy to control. it hurts us soo much. we love him too much, too much to let him go but we noe we shld.
it jus hurts.sigh. i hav to be strong. my ah ma nids me.