Tuesday, December 28, 2010
if im not wrong the bth of u are tgt now. anw i jus hope that u will not be caught in the same situation again for bgr. i noe it is torturing n i think experiencing once is enough!
i still care n i hav no idea why.another fren broke up n she keeps asking me why i dun hav a bf still n doesnt believe that no one is goin aft me
Posted by van at 12:11 AM
Friday, December 17, 2010
need to quit being emo! LOL. but who blogs when they are happy/contented. i duno. unless theres like a special ocassion to do so like hmm birthday?
anyhows, a self note to myself.
it may seem bleak, it may be hopeless but dun give up all hopes. aft u are done whinning, rmb to pick urself up and move ahead for u may lose even more.
bel asked me if im affected by the fact that they hav gotten back tgt. my ans was no. she told me she wld be. like ive told my frens, i think i jus miss having someone there aft all i always had someone there for me till we broke up. this is really the longest time that im single so its a lil hard to get used to n mayb a lil upsetting? cos sometimes i start to doubt myself:s bad i noe. i become more concious and mayb a lil more reserved. hahha. no confidence man:(
i will get by this phase and den im done w relationships. time is all i need. i noe it is goin two yrs but u noe... habits are hard to kick so be a lil more tolerance towards me k?:( hahaha. k nights!
Posted by van at 2:37 AM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
u know the whole thing abt getting to know a foreigner n being attached to them is exciting meeeee inside out?! lol. recently i found two girls who are attached to ang mo. one is my pri sch fren n another is jus a girl i stalk.OOPS. but ya lah. the guys are damn sweeeet. one of them is very good looking and extremely sweeeet. OMG. why, tell me why such good deal doesnt happen to me? lol. one of my hall frens said that the reasons why im not atteached cos my social circle is tooo small n im too unapproachable. watever. i only wan ang mo. LOL.
good things doesnt come easy eh and i guess i dun hav such luck.
anw, exam has started and it sucks bigggie time. FELT SO STUPID AFT TODAY'S! i duno wat my future holds but i will keep exploring.
ps: go usa explore n hook up to a hot, sweeet ang mo??!! JUS KIDDNG. hahaha
PPS: I IS NOT DESPO. lol. jus think that it is coools.
Posted by van at 2:21 AM
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
do u knw how it feels like when u walk out of the exam hall thinking abt the STUPID mistakes u made?
it eats me from the inside right aft i was done w it. i feel like the stupidest person. why did i try so hard n yet feeling like its the end of the world aft it?! why did i bother trying? was it beneficial at all? what is in this brain? why why didnt i read the qn properly b4 attempting? why do i keep making mistakes and lose soo much time. 25MARKS gone. wat the hell. this is one of the crucial mod n yet i actually lose so much marks!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! WILL CRYING HELP? CAN I GET OUT OF IT N STUDY MY NEXT MOD?!
Posted by van at 2:21 PM
Thursday, December 09, 2010
u noe why some times some things are best to be left unspoken? i noe.
even if i noe, i will still wana dig out the truth. i guess it is the same for many. haha. this time, i cant be bothered. the heart has dead or rather it wants to live a life of its own. yep.
tml is the first paper! JIAYOU!
Posted by van at 8:57 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Posted by van at 8:58 PM
Sunday, December 05, 2010
many a times, we want best of both worlds. we will rack our brains to achieve it. there are times when u just cannot help but choose between one. today, i made a decision and that is to give up continuing korean stage 3. i need to finance my driving test n i really need to pass this time. it is far too expensive to fail again!:(
mayb i will need to give up grad trip too? i hav no idea man. mayb im being unrealistic to want these stuff. u noe u jus wish that things come to u much easier so that u dun hav to be deprived of things that are so called basic needs of others.
if i had more interest in acad and hav a stronger foundation than what i hav now, i probably wldnt be struggling so much now:x
Posted by van at 9:32 PM