Friday, October 29, 2010
jus to clarify, i wasnt angry when i posted the prev post. let me make myself clear, i jus wanted to find out what are the guys thinking as it happened to my frens. i dun wan to keep guess wat went wrong so i jus wan to hear the guys' side of story but he doesnt see a need in tell me. or wat he said was the bulk of it. lol. ahh whatever. im up n up again. i need to slp. nights world. i love my emo rooomie n i really miss my frens.
Posted by van at 2:52 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2010
and so we finally talked abt it but there wasnt a closure to it.
a lil msg to u: if u were in my shoes, im sure u will want to know wat went wrong too. what would made someone whom u had believed in to tell u the news that sent u crashing down. it wouldnt be easy for u to forget about it. what you had left me is a scar that tears open now n then. u can nv imagine hw much pain u had given me and hw much u hav change my mindset. i will be strong cos u arent that great afterall. i will plaster the wound over n over again such that it will not tear open. PERIOD.
Posted by van at 2:31 PM
Monday, October 25, 2010
one of my frens jus broke up couple of weeks ago and the reason was the guy wanted to serve God? somewhere along the line. i tot it was rather courageous of him n my fren to take this step. as i follow her blog, i realised that guy seems to be getting on rather well without her. according to her, he has been goin to places exclusive to the both of them with his frens. mind you, they only broke up for 1.5mths.
i rmbed i swore that i will nv set foot in The Cathay. i even had my fren to change the venue to watch movie. if u broke up because of special reasons and that you still love the person, is it logical to do or visit places that are exclusive to the bth of u with ur frens? wouldnt it hurt like mad when u are there? is it that guys picked up themselves MUCHMUCH faster than we girls do that they can do things that were once exclusive to him and his ex or they are very good at concealing their feelings such that even when they are hurting inside, no one cld tell? i really wan to know hw guys work and what are they thinking.
i told hy abt me n gh. she said she wld hav asked me to break up if him should she hav known abt it earlier. she said that i havent met the best so i will meet someone better. i am not that hopeful.. lol.
anw i think gh is slightly better. for the one mth aft we broke up, he smsed me. some times he would say things that i know he still cares and mayb disappointed that we didnt work out like i feel shitty. i duno even noe wat is the right thing to say to cheeer u up.. but of course he didnt say stuff that make me wannna KILLL him.ie i was right to do so(the breakup) cos u left me alone to pick myself up. still, i think i he has a place in my heart.:x
mayb he will only be erased aft i met someone better n aft like 2 yrs of interaction n jio-ing? LOL.
study study for nowwww (:
Posted by van at 7:40 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2010
im kinda enjoying what singlehood gives me but of cos it includes random moments of emo-ness, loneliness. HEY, i know i can overcome these lil stuff because u can and i hav awesome roomie n frens w me. oh i forgot, the ever busy hall and uni life to keep u out of mind.
okay lahh. mayb at times when im muggin i wld miss those times we studied n chiong for our major exams tgt, how u wld always be there physically or morally, visits to my hall when i confined myself, bring lots of food n fruits as tho theres no canteens ard, the stupid but cute pic of urself holding a piece of paper that says i love u, giving me surprises, the calls n msgs daily to simply keep in touch n stay connected. thats all abt being in a relationship. i would always miss those times even tho i know we cant be frens or rather u are unwilling to be frens again.
alright back to heterocyclicccc(:
i miss u, ex-bestfriend.
Posted by van at 4:45 PM
OMG. i seriously cannot stand 314. KILL MEEE.arggg.
i reallllly miss u a lot BUT i shall learn to love 314.
Posted by van at 12:47 AM
Saturday, October 16, 2010
it was naive n probably something nice to say to end it. now, i know that it is not possible. i will not try again.
i will focus on things that matter more. like my frens, studies and losing weight! the fats should not be accumulating!!!!!!:( fat vanesssaaaaaa:(
Posted by van at 9:17 PM
the hardest part always takes the most time.
Posted by van at 12:31 AM
Friday, October 15, 2010
BOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i really wonder why m i so dumb. why m i so stupidd.. i need to muggy soon. entre project, mids. i feel so tired n im lazy to do anything. should i get some slp b4 embark on entre?
Posted by van at 2:12 PM
Monday, October 11, 2010
i know i shouldnt talk to him when i know that wat he says still affect me.it is not always the case tho. recently, i find myself not wanting to talk to him alr. it gets boring when someone isnt interested to tok to u even when u meant well. it irritates me. why do you wan to be nice when that someone isnt appreciative? even if we are only frens, i dun think this is too much or i hav crossed the line. im not gonna care alr. theres too much on my hands.
anws, 311 was a biggie bitch! whywhy was i so kanchiong? why was i panic till i cldnt match the spectra to the correct compound? why i cant even pick out 8 qn to do? why didnt i read alll qn aft picking?!
VANEESSSAAA, wake up!
Posted by van at 7:07 PM
Friday, October 08, 2010
am i too trusting? i should hav some faith right? thats how a good relationship is built and also it wld be a rather good way to make that person feel guilty if he has some conscience.my life has been rather interesting. i think it all started when i was in rj and it is still going on. i guess it is because of all these lil challenges that make me mature faster than my peers. hwever, i wld love that my life improves from now on cos i think im getting old and tired dealing such matters.
a bettter tml!(:
Posted by van at 10:29 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2010
so many times, so much memories, at the end of the day u are still the one i turned to.
Posted by van at 3:29 PM