Sunday, January 02, 2011
2nd jan 2011
i would be dreading this time next yr. WHY? cos it will be my last semester in sch. okay mayb not. i will be doing my industrial attachment then i will grad from NTU. i really do not loook forward to it. i dun wan to grow up and face the ugly reality. i duno hw will it change me or how will i survive:(
some times i find myself really ridiculous. i can spend my new year eve all alone watching drama. i even ignore msgs from my frens. mayb i jus want some time alone. i rmb i went out shopping alone. lol. yet some times im afraid of being alone. i dun quite understand.
in 2010, i went to the cathay for the first time aft we broke up. i really havent been there for a loooong while. we had ben's n jerry n this is the first time i dun feel anything eating the ice cream. i used to mind eating it cos i was afraid that i would be reminded of u; being reminded of the times u buy me my favourite flavour to cheer me up, help me destress during quizzes n exams. being reminded of how u would lick the cover of the icecream.
some times it feels like im really to tk on anything that comes my way but some times i feel empty. mayb i indulge myself in those dramas bcos i need the thing called happily ever aft to fill this void and mayb allow myself to hav a reason to tear. i wonder if im self pitying. why does it seem like the end of the world or m i this emotional. HAH. i guess im jus emotional.:D
alright im goin to slp den get myself ready for the bz week ahead! i promise to achieve as much as i can this year! JIAYOU!
Posted by van at 12:16 AM
Saturday, January 01, 2011
aloha! happy new yr! yes, i was watching drama-mama again:D
will blog again!
Posted by van at 3:14 AM