Saturday, May 27, 2006
last sat, aft our last trng wif sir n the j2s, most of the hockey gals went to ian's hse for some gathering for both the guys n the gals.his place looks like a chalet!hahaha..dirty hockey gals like us din bother to bathe aft trng.hehehe..most of dem played bball bt i wanted to swim cos i had game in the evening.when i was walking wif jing bac to ian's hse coz she wanted to wear her shoes to play bball, i saw joan n orly.dey told mi tat dey r going to e pool.i happily went to his hse n took my bag.lalalaal..jacq n i wore shirt into the pool.it's nt allowed tho.heheeh..when we saw the security guard walking towards us, we quickly took off us shirts.both of us went to hide under the bridge.lulu came n she wanted to c jacq's body.hahaha..the guys came too.both jacq n i were shy to let the guys c us.hahahah..:x
soon orly, joan n jacq wanted to go n bathe.so i went up too.i din bathe.haha..i jus walked ard in my wet shorts n pe t-shirt.lulu n aiysha were dragged into the pool.hahahaha..i played a part in it.*gRiNs* lu n i went to the bball court.benjy is damn pro la!hahaha.soon, all the guys were found in the pool.i took sup's camera to tk pics of dem in the pool!hahahaah..dey were playing touch rugby in the pool.ian's team was lousy?hahaha..aft the guys had finished palying, nat, chris n lulu went in.i was sitting at the side n den.........dey dragged me mi!!tat's nt the end.dey attempted to tk off my shirt!evil!!anw, i managed to escape coz i screamed!!hahahah.i went to bathe aft tat.i called a cab n went delta wif sup.we had match against each other.hahaha.hmm..fun.wheneva i fall, sup wld ask me if im alrite.tat's all for the 20th of may..
i had match wif src on the 21st.we lost 1-0!hahaha..yeah!sup asked mi if i can hlp out in some carnival on the 22nd.of cos i agreed coz can pon sch!!hahaha
met laila at redhill mrt station.we saw michael.dey told us wat to do n hw to use the timer.i was in charge of the timer n announcing of scores while laila is in charge of asking the teams to get rdy to go into the pitch n the recording of scores.michael den told us to get another 2 person to hlp.two guys came bt dey refused to buy food for us.i was vvvv hungry.i was afraid tat i wld hav gastric.laila n i wanted to buy food at ard 1030 bt michael wanted a gal to stay so laila stayed n a guy followed mi.the reason behind tis is tat the two guys were screwing the thing up.haha.we went tbp's mac.i came bac n i saw my skss frens.talked to dem blah blah n off i go to do the announcement.michael was toking abt the guy's team to some guy.he talked abt the gals team too.it made mi feel sad.besides tat some of my umpirer frens were asking wat happen to my team.i went to the toilet s soon s he had finished talking.i was kinda moody for the rest of the day.we went bac to sch aft tat coz the gals team was watching the movie called miracle.i felt so much beta aft tat.haha
on the 23rd of may, we had our 3rd n 4th. i was the center half.wat a joke rite??lol..i tried my best to play well in tat position.aft like 10 min, i asked to be sub out coz i had cramp in both legs.the 1st aiders massaged my legs.i hate my legs for cramping at the wrong time!when i was out, i wanted so much to be in!!when 2nd half started, i wasnt able to play too.aft like 5min of the 2nd i went to sir.he asked if i can play i told him i can try.i went in and played right wing.no. 5 of nj kept following mi.she practically stuck herself onto mi!!anw, some hw she fell without me doin anything n the umpire blew against mi.i was like wth i din touch her at all!i was irritated!den sir switch me to left wing.the two times when i got the ball on the left, i dribbled dwn the line.1 resulted in a short corner n the other resulted in a goal!hahaha..aft tat goal, i was sub out.i oni played like 10-15 min for the second half!sir wanted the j2s to play cos it was their last match for sch.michael said tat it's the quality nt the quantity tat matters.i cldnt believe tat i cld dribble on the left!
i was reali happy tat i wasnt nervous at all!!i listened to gospel songs b4 the match.it reali hlped!i hate those cramps!i drank alot of water.i reali did.sigh.
on the 24th, it was finals.the gals went to support the guys aft our gp common test.we had to cab dwn coz paper ended at 4.it was a scary 1st half coz the ball seldom enter vj's D.the final score was 2-0.joel scored the 1st goal thru short corner n dani scored the 2nd goal thru field play.well done.((:
26th of may.the gals team had a meeting wif sir.hossain asked mi if it was true tat sir is leaving.o got a shocked.i called laila immediately cos she ponned sch.i asked her to go to sch.my lesson was supposed to end at 4.i pon my 3pm pe n my 2pm lesson was cancelled.i met laura, meixian n their fren.i showed dem ard.anw, meetin was at four.sir announced tat it was his last day in sch.i started cryin.i jus felt so sad.it was a pity tat we din win the champ.it wld be the bez gift for him.he knew he was leaving all along.he din wan to tell us coz he doesnt want us to play for him.
i will miss him.i seriously will.
no1 will be happy tat i din fall in the match
no1 will kip reminding me not to fall in matches
i'll miss playing hockey with him
i'll miss trying ways n means to dribble past him
i'll miss him askin me to go for runs
i'll miss him saying lame jokes
i'll miss him making weird looks
i'll miss him telling me to work wif others
i'll miss him telling me not to fall
i'll miss him making fun of me
"a fitter vanessa can do mre things"
sir: y u kip falling dwn?
me: coz dey trip me wif their sticks
sir: hw come when i play dey dun do it?
me: i duno
sir: we shldnt be falling wat.we r abt the same height.eh, u 14 wat ah?
sigh.i'll no longer c him in sch.:'(
Posted by van at 12:01 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
my match is nt in delta.it's in ccab!!!
Posted by van at 10:08 AM
Monday, May 22, 2006
i break again..today.i was hlping out in delta n i heard ppl saying hw can rj gals lose to sa?hai.i noe my team is good.i hav confident in getting tat gold.bt.....we lost in the semi.i felt vv bad.i was kinda moody so i msg my new fren?im afraid tat the same ting wld happen again.
van doesnt like to tk flicks
van suck at it
van is v useless in impt matches
overall, van is a damn useless nat. player!
Posted by van at 9:58 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
oooooo..i feel soo much beta!!coz two coaches said tat TEAM RJ IS BETA THAN TEAM SA!one of dem said we r beta than vj.i noe we hav no proof.ppl out der can say tat they jus wana console mi.BT I DUN CARE!i hav faith in my team.i noe tat we r good.;)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XINNI!!
Posted by van at 10:14 PM
i found tis cool poem in my fren's frenster profile!!haha
When are we going to be together?
Will you love me now or will it take forever?
I Love you always with all my heart
Be with you and never apart
With this poem I have one thing in mind
You just have to read the first word in each line
to those who are very concerned abt me i wana say a BIG THANK to u guys. im fine nw. im looking forward to the nx match-3rd n 4th placing. come dwn and support if u can. 430 at delta (nearest mrt station: redhill) hope to c you guys der.. (:
Posted by van at 1:11 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
RJ HOCKEY GALS LOST TO SA HOCKEY GALS BY FLICKS (SUDDEN DEATH) ON THE 17TH OF MAY AT DELTA. AS A RESULT, THEY ARE OUT OF THE COMPETITION FOR THAT GOLD THEY HAVE BEEN WANTING SINCE THE SEASON HAS STARTED.
yep, we r playing against nj 4 3rd n 4th placing. i feel tat im a failure.im a national palyer bt im nt calm enuff to tk the pressure. i noe when i feel nervous n scared, i wun be able to play well! it had happened to me twice before the semis. one against MI another against NJ. i reali hate that feeling! i din wan it to happen to me for the semis. but, guess wat? it did!
since the day had started, i had been trying to stay happy and forget abt the nervousness n fear tat i felt. i listened to my mp3 all day til it died on me. i need to listen to gospel songs jus b4 my match. sadly, my mp3 died on me jus b4 the match. despite of that, i borrowed my fren's mp3 which has gospel songs, hoping it wld hav the same effect. however, it wasnt. it was a complete different feeling. usually i wld feel much mre confident to tk up the challenge bt that day i cldnt feel it at all. i knew sth wasnt rite so i sang the chorus of a gospel song to myself. again, hoping it wld work. however, it din. when i was doing basic wif rachel, i cld feel my legs shaking. from that moment onwards, i knew im not goin to perform.
as ian had told me to put whatever worries outside the pitch once i stepped onto it, so i did. i reali did. all that was on my mind was to win sa. i played right wing den to right half coz sir wanted me to stop all the sa's long ball to their forwards. i was shocked when he put me der. i din noe hw high i shld go so i stayed rather low. aft like 5-10 mins later, he put me up front again. my left calf was cramping again. this time rd, i din ask to be sub out. i jus continued playing. it was stil nil all at half time.
talked abt the match den went bac into the pitch for 2nd half. i played center forward. our attacks were moslty on the left so i was on the left most of the times too. i cldnt pull the ball to my strong side. it din only happen once but many. i got the ball nicely n got tackled jus bcoz i cldnt pull. i was frustrated bt i din show it. i knew tat was the result of the shaking legs b4 the match. i jus calmed myself dwn n tried to stop their long balls to their forwards. i did stop a few of them. sir put me bac on the right wing i tink he wanted us to attack on the right mre bt somehw it din reali happen.the few times when we attacked on the right, i dribbled all the way into the D and got tackled. i dribbled past their main defenders n was one-on-one wif their keeper bt grace was fast. she was on me again when i wanted to turn my body n tk a shot. sigh. aft a long battle, sa scored a short corner goal. i was vv scared as i knew that der wasnt much time left. sa was deliberately wasting time. they took a hell long time to pick the ball to tk their 16-yard hit. luckily, laila got the ball, dribbled into their D, did a reverse n scored. ais n i lied onto of laila. we were all vv happy. it was like a second chance to win the match. den, the whistle was blown. it was 1-1 so we had to play golden goal.
we den rested a while and played golden goal, 5 min each half. we were in their half all 10min bt we stil din score. flicks was nx. i was the 5th flicker. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. i wasnt confident to tk it at all. i dun hav the experience. i wasnt trained. i took it and i missed it. we stil cldnt tell who was the winner aft 5 flicks frm each sch. den sudden death. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. bt stil, it came. worst of all, i had to put it in if nt we r out. again, i missed it. it hit the post!! i was vv disappointed n upset so i threw my stick n i wanted to run out of delta. jus den, i saw my dad n mum @ the enterance. i ran towards my dad n hugged him. i cldnt stop crying. ian n a few others came to console me. they brought me bac into the pitch. every1 was dwn. some were trying hard not to cry while some jus like me, burst into tears. sir gav us a min to cry. i din cry during that one min.i jus lied on the floor. nx, we sang sch song on the pitch wif the supporters. tears jus filled my eyes once again n threatened to fall. i teared again. i jus cldnt stop crying. hugs frm team mates n frens stil din work. i jus kept crying. mr loo, my ct, called me n consoled me. he told me that he watched my match. he said that he was proud of me.
i tried to cheer up bt it din work. i jus cant. it was all filled with sadness. we went for team dinner. i din feel like eating. partly bcoz i was sad n i vomited. i ate in the end coz sir was sitting right in front of me. i went bac home wif a heavy heart. i jus hate myself for nt being able to overcome the fear. i wanted soo much to prove to dem that we nt only hav stamina, we hav skills n we r beta than dem. they were ego b4 the match against us. they said we only hav stamina. i wanted the gold! i wanted to meet vj n try to win the gold 4 the sch. i wanted to prove that we r beta than vj to those who always say we will lose to vj if we play against dem. i believe that we can do it. sadly, we r not given a chance to prove it. I PROMISE THAT MY TEAM WILL COME BACK STRONG TO WIN THE GOLD NEXT YEAR. jus watch it.
i went to sch ytd. i felt sad. i dared nt cry in front of my team mates. i stood behind my class during assembly n started tearing. i din wan to cry bt i jus cldnt hold it any longer. barney saw n he came n stood beside me, asking me not to cry. sir said that i was completely marked out ytd n he cld feel that we all wanted to win. i went to LT looking sad. sue lynn n joanne spoke to me n hugged me. tearing jus kept falling. the guys in my cls dared nt sit in front of me coz i was crying. i attended chem lect n tutorial ytd only. i went to look for the gals aft chem tutorial. i sat at the hockey table n started tearing again. i jus cldnt stop dem from falling. we went town to rot den went for the guys' semis. i eyed on a few clothes. i wish i had unlimited amt of money to spend. maybe it wld make me feel beta. anw the guys won Mi 9-0. pau was der too. during the half time, she spoke to us. i felt bad. RJ gals were 2nd last yr. tis yr wif the dsas we had to play 4 3rd n 4th placing. what is tis man?! the j3s wanted us to win the gold too. we disappointed dem. i hate it!!sigh
Posted by van at 11:28 AM
Friday, May 12, 2006
game against cj was bad.i gav up e match when e team wasnt fightin wif mi.i felt vv hlpless.frm e right i ran all e way to e left.nt once bt mani times.i guess i hav to be stronger mentally n physically.
im lousy!i started playin hockey when i was p5 n im nt gd @ all!my ball control suck!i duno if it is cos i always hav no confidence so i cant show it or i reali dun hav it.either way i still suck!!!:(
Posted by van at 5:03 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
match against nj on tue was postponed durin to the heavy rain.we oni played 15min n it started to pour.i was damn happy coz i wasnt playin well.
i was vv nervous when i was watching e match b4 my match.i even breakdwn!!on the pitch, i duno wat happen to mi.i duno wat i was doing.i was lost all of a sudden so when i heard it was postponed, i was v happy coz i can hav time to calm myself dwn.anw, rachel scored a goal in the 15min.
i went to sup's hse to stay ovr.she tok to mi abt being nervous.i felt beta n i slept soundly.match was postponed to tis morning.we played the remainding 15min n the 2nd half.it was stil 1-0 when the 15min was up.when we were tokin abt our play during our half-time, i heard tpj's coach telling dem tat their match is nicer to watch!!i stared @ him n he shut up.we played much beta in the 2nd half.i got e ball on the left n i duno wat i did.i actually got dribbled two defenders n took a shot!it was a goal!!haha..i was super happy!!aft which i went out coz my nose was irritating mi!came in n scored thru shot corner.it was a random pass by laila.haha.the last goal was scored by shu qing.
yepyep.the scoreline was 4-0!((:
nx match tml against cj.ohya.two sa n two vj hockers pon sch to spy our match.their coaches came as well.sa loves video-ing our match.hate dem!
Posted by van at 8:04 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
omg!!it's tml!!!!!!!!AHHH......I SERIOUSLY HATE TIS!!
turning in...Zzzzzzzz
Posted by van at 10:47 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
der's gym trng tml @ delta!!shld i go??i hav match the following day.it's not jus a match.it's a vvv IMPT match for RJ hockey gals!arg..
i getting nervous..:(
Posted by van at 9:52 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
a week of sch has gone just like that.it's so fast!the hockey guys r doin well.(like duh) haha..nx tues playing against nj!!omg.im like hw scared laa.went for sum strenght test ytd.my arms r aching!!i hav to go gym 3 times a week to get stronger b4 the next strenght test which is 12 weeks frm nw!im tired.i duno y.i feel like zzzz..BYE!((:
Posted by van at 2:23 PM