Wednesday, November 25, 2009
there's no limit to love's forbearance, to its trust, to its hope, its power to endure.
isnt this beautiful? i think this describes wat love means to most girls?yes?no?
honestly, does it exist? i would love to believe that it does. heh. hopefully my gfs are able to find such love. haha. if not.... we'll jus live tgt and open a childcare centre. ppl would probably label us as lesbian but who cares.haha.
Posted by van at 12:23 PM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
sorry for the emo posts. like my msn nick says woke up. i hav thought it thru n i hav come to a conclusion. im fine alr. no more emoemo. heh.
anw, my rooomie n i are really excited abt MY 21st. so why is she excited? shes in charge of the deco, theme blah. we do noe its still exam period but we jus cant hlp but to direct our attention to sth happier. hahaha.
my frens are jus soo amazing(: who needs a bf?
Posted by van at 5:40 PM
Friday, November 20, 2009
feeling screweddd. i still havent gotten over econs. shit. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I HAVENT STARTED MUGGING FOR WED'S. SHITTT.
like wat bel mentioned in her blog, frens in hall and frens in jc, sec sch are different. when i hav problems i will fall back to my old frens or jus keep it to myself. i really miss jc days. i can talk to the girls everyday, he was still there. everything was good. here, i find myself not being able to keep my friendships long. i hav been soo busy this sem n i hav lost frens whom i truly wan to keep. friends who were there for me when i was a freshie. they were really a bunch of nice caring seniors who did not mind befriending w the childish and ignorant us. playing cards tgt till weee hours, jus being ourselves and had lots of fun. mayb it was cos of him that im soo afraid to get close to someone and get myself into a mess aft that someone decides to leave adruptly. my old friends are always there for me despite the lack of meet ups and communications. they are a bunch of friends who are always there. i appreciate it alot. like bel, she doesnt leave me alone in the room as much as last time jus to accompany me and let me know that im not alone.thank you bel bel(: choy chiaw yee is sooo cute aft she learnt wat had happened to me in this short period of time she kept telling me not to keep things to myself cos its not healthy! hah. i know shes worried that i might plunge into depression. love ya(:
alright need to direct my focus to my notes now.gosh never ending. all the best to those having exam!(:
when i start to think and plan it, it jus reminds me of you. i really miss you a whole lot despite you being really mean to me..
Posted by van at 2:15 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
vanessa is feeling very stressed. econ is making her feel like pulling up her hairs. honestly i feel like dying right now. zz. i have resorted to memorising n we all know that you cannot memorise econ without understanding. im screwed.
Posted by van at 5:42 PM
Saturday, November 14, 2009
i had a really good meetup n catching up session w the bimz today!(: all thanks to fiz (cos its her birthday) n mas who finally decided that she had to organise an outing(: lovesssss. haha.
it was really good to know that my frens in med are doin well and they are really having a hell lot of fun. it makes me wana join them! ntu is freaking boring! in med they are bonded while in ntu we are soooo not bonded. zz. why are they having so much fun? i totally miss the days in jc where we always always find time n place jus to bridge despite the rule of no playing of cards b4 5pm.
on a lighter note, bel asked me to hint wat i wan for my 21st. i told mas that i only need ONE thing from dem n that is to find me a really rich bf. he can fulfil all my material needs/wants.heh. like wat i was telling chewy on the way back that aft goin thru so much in a short period of time i realise i dun need a bf. i dun need his shoulders to lean on. i can go thru anything myself cos i hav the strenght to aft all that has happened thus far(:
need to mug. progress is really slow.
SEE YOU GIRLS IN A MTH'S TIME!(:
Posted by van at 12:18 AM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
alright been feeling realllllly unwell these days. sigh.. its timr i hav to do serious mugging but my body fails me. zz. totally hate it. had reallly bad dizzy spell on mon night and felt really weak last night. i am still feeling sick. down w flu and a lil sore throat. my eyes feel like they are goin to pop out anytime and im aching all over. zz. AHHH. i hav decided to slp so that i pray that i will be in better health tml. if not good game.
on a lighter note, the bims will be meetinggg on fri.cant wait!(:
bel asked me ytd if he seriously hasnt been contacting/ignoring me. she said she still refuse to believe that he has become like that. well all i can say is that i probably aint the girl in his heart anymore. i am jus a passerby in his life. i hate it when i get all so emotional at home. zz. i will wwin this war. jus wait.
Posted by van at 11:30 PM
Sunday, November 08, 2009
i am baffled as to why this series of events that have happened to me thus far happened aft we broke up? was he my lucky star or a relatively impenetrable shield? it beats me.
Posted by van at 10:09 AM
Saturday, November 07, 2009
a rather emotional night. i actually msged him. aft awhile, i realised theres no pt in getting him here. wat can he do to make the situation better? why do i need to trouble someone else when its sth that i shld handle it myself irregardless of its magnitude? to prevent anyone to say sth inappropriate or put ppl in an uncomfortable positions, i have decided that i will seek no one for comfort, console.. wateva. i will go thru it myself even if its more than wat i can tk.
i will trouble no one.
Posted by van at 10:01 PM
Thursday, November 05, 2009
booo jus hav this sudden urge to blog.
i really need to buck up and i miss all my frens. been caught off guard at times:(
oh well life goes on! im really surprised how im able to make each lab memorable. lolheh
tata
Posted by van at 11:44 PM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
hmm jus wana blog a lil.
im lagging pretty badly. i dun seem to hav the drive anymore and its 2weeks to exam!omg. how howhowwww!zz. all im feeling is tiredd:( had a real longggggg week. 3tests in a day coupled w a 7hr long meeting. insane! i really really miss my frens:(
list of things to be completed tml:
e-lect on protection grp
type expt 7 and 8
needa understand 213n 212!omg!:(
Posted by van at 12:58 AM