Sunday, June 13, 2010

it is funny that i would want to see things that i know it may affect my mood. mayb i jus wan to know if i would be affected. the truth is i am. it is both sad and happy. sad that my heart still aches but happy to know that he is happily in love. i wonder when will i not be affected by these stuff. it took me 4yrs to not ache for this particular guy. i am really curious how long i will tk tis time.haha. it is interesting. lol. if the times spent/emotions invested has a linear relationship with the time needed to not feel a thing den i will tk really long this time. abt 4 times the time i used to forget that guy.hoho.we shall see.

ANW, i am not upset. lol. jus a thought(: i am as happy as ever. i have lovely frens w me, endless programs w u girls and things to learn. why wld i feel sad?:D my life is even more beautiful than i was attached! i am really glad and thankful for all the fun and experiences i had during this period. it might be one of the darkest period that i have gone thru but it is definately a big WAKE UP call (in a good way) for me.

why frown when i hav family members who wld always stay by me
why frown when i hav awesome frens who will help me up and walk me out of the dark, eerie tunnels that i hav or will be going thru
why frown when theres sooo much more to life
why frown when i am much more fortunate than those who are in a worst plight than me
why frown when it is not the end.

HERE'S A BIGGIE SMILEY :D FOR EVERYONE.

Posted by van at 11:35 PM