Saturday, June 19, 2010

im beginning to wonder is it feelings or phobia? all along i believed that it was phobia. oh wait, did i force myself to believe so?probably it is sth that i hope is true. well, i guess this is inevitable especially when im actually someone whom treasures relationships. im not only referring to bgr here. im also referring to kinship and frenship.

i noe who are the ones helping me and showered me with care n concern in his own ways. i am deeply grateful to him. i shall not go on lest someone finds out. haha. it is not the identity of the person that im hiding but the things that he has done. yep. pls do not think that i hav a new target. lol. probably the target has nv changed. haha.

comparing cl and gh, after breaking w cl i went on revenge. i dated one aft one and i liked none.as for gh, i didnt hav the impulse to do so. in fact, i feel that i cannot love anymore. i cannot commit to another relationship. these two experience are hmm two extremes? wat im trying to say is that i guess i hav really matured over the years and the way i handle things are different now.

life brings you alots of surprises; it may bring you up and it may destroy you. it all depends on hw you see it and of course the support of the love ones are imperative. whatever that comes in your way serves to teach and mould you into someone much more incredible and wiser. going on 21 years of life, i hav really learnt alot from this thing called life. if someone so pessimistic like me could see life in an optimistic way im sure anyone out there will be able to do so. let's all work hard for our future and may we triumph over the challenges that life poses us!(:

Posted by van at 3:05 AM