Friday, November 20, 2009

feeling screweddd. i still havent gotten over econs. shit. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I HAVENT STARTED MUGGING FOR WED'S. SHITTT.

like wat bel mentioned in her blog, frens in hall and frens in jc, sec sch are different. when i hav problems i will fall back to my old frens or jus keep it to myself. i really miss jc days. i can talk to the girls everyday, he was still there. everything was good. here, i find myself not being able to keep my friendships long. i hav been soo busy this sem n i hav lost frens whom i truly wan to keep. friends who were there for me when i was a freshie. they were really a bunch of nice caring seniors who did not mind befriending w the childish and ignorant us. playing cards tgt till weee hours, jus being ourselves and had lots of fun. mayb it was cos of him that im soo afraid to get close to someone and get myself into a mess aft that someone decides to leave adruptly. my old friends are always there for me despite the lack of meet ups and communications. they are a bunch of friends who are always there. i appreciate it alot. like bel, she doesnt leave me alone in the room as much as last time jus to accompany me and let me know that im not alone.thank you bel bel(: choy chiaw yee is sooo cute aft she learnt wat had happened to me in this short period of time she kept telling me not to keep things to myself cos its not healthy! hah. i know shes worried that i might plunge into depression. love ya(:

alright need to direct my focus to my notes now.gosh never ending. all the best to those having exam!(:

when i start to think and plan it, it jus reminds me of you. i really miss you a whole lot despite you being really mean to me..

Posted by van at 2:15 PM