Saturday, April 11, 2009
i hav been trying to get back to where i was a few yrs back. abt 3 yrs back? i begin to think that actually im not that great aft all. where form m i trying to get back? this how i hav been playing. this is me in hockey. i hav nv played anything better than this. im lousy. this lousy. wat national player, youth squad.. i hav nv been in those teams. i hav nv achieved those. that wasnt me! i have been deceiving others. i have been too egoistic!i have been lying to make myself sound good. the real me is far from wat ppl noe abt me. why. why is this happening?! why do i keep trying and fall even harder?when i saw a glimpse of hope, i held it tightly but i fell even harder. am i putting too much pressure on myself or im jus not up to it?
maybeishouldjustgiveup
Posted by van at 9:48 PM