Monday, May 05, 2008

Hello World Wide Web! I haven’t been updating about my life much right? Here you go

The national team/u21 team played against the aust team last mon and tues, the score lines were 4-1 and 4-0 respectively. We lost both games, I felt that we could take them and we weren’t that bad actually. Everyone in the team got a chance to prove their worth and I guess I blew mine away. I actually trembled when I got the ball! Haha. Is that how someone playing at the national level should have reacted? Sometimes I wonder if I really did start playing hockey since I was in pri 5. The way that I’m playing and how I have reacted in some matches showed otherwise. However, I am not going to let these affect me. Like I have told sup, I am going to build up my mental strength because I realised that it is my weak mental strength that let me down in most matches. I will start with the psychology booklet that Chris gave us and I will constantly remind myself to press on during all trainings- the tough and the slack ones.

I slacked both fri and thurs away. I did my usual idling around on wed and met bf at night to chill out. It is nice spending time with him by just sitting at the void deck. It slows the pace of life (well my pace of life is pretty slow though) and allows you to notice the little details that you will tend to miss out in your all-so-hectic life. It also allows me to talk to him more as he is usually busy in the weekdays. OCS is killing my bf, constantly draining him out and thus, he doesn’t have the time to call me and falls asleep after a few messages.

When he just entered OCS, he told me that after these two weeks he would go to air wing and would have more time for me. He used to call me everyday and now that he is in air wing I hardly receive calls from him. He said that if he was in infantry, he would not have the time to send the few messages that he sends me now and books out on sat which means less time to hang out. Well, one starts to get greedy when they have little of something or have achieved their aim. Now, I feel that my results are not good enough as I cannot get into the course of my choice. I have a friend who has already reached her goal but because of her gp result, she felt upset about it at times. See what I mean by greediness? I guess it is because of the presence of competition that the nature of human character is showed more evidently. Alright, I will learn to be contented with what I have. Besides that, my bf suffers more than I do (: JIAYOU BF!

Anyway, bf and I caught iron man on thurs. it was good and the company was great (duh). After movie, bf rushed to meet his family and his favourite restaurant to have delicious xiaolong bao (I think) hahaha. Pardon me for my poor memory. I think too much slacking has caused more of my brain cells to die or maybe I didn’t make the effort to remember. Please do not kill me bf! You forget things as well. Hehe. I actually I miss studying. The rate of neurogensis (did I get the spelling right?) in my brain can be regarded as non-existent as I didn’t learn anything new or memorised anything and that also means I am not getting any smarter :(

Friday was my first day of work at Singapore land authority. I had problems locating the building as the directions from the mrt station could only led me to 8 shenton way. When I came out of the mrt station, all I could see was BUILDINGS! I didn’t know which building to go to as I have no idea which is temasek tower! I had to ask around. As a result, I was a few minutes late. Anyhow, meet Adrian as instructed by my job agent from recruit express. Oh wait before I go on, I wanna praise my job agent! He is the nicest job agent I have ever met! He kept helping me looking for jobs when I kept rejecting the job he proposed. I must say, he has really strong perseverance! Thank you for finding me such a great job that kinda fulfils my requirements! Anyway, back to my first day of work. My colleagues are mostly middle aged women. The ones near me are pretty friendly and nice. One of them gave me a cup and just now she asked me to drink more water! Hahaha. They said that I resemble one of the ladies’ daughters while that lady felt that I look like her friend’s daughter. I enjoyed my first day of work (:

After work, I went to training. I dreaded training yet again. Most of us thought that our trainings for that week would be the two matches we had with the aust team but coach said no. my heart broke when coach announced that there was training on fri. anyway, I went and enjoy the training. Chua xinni helped me with stopping of ball while running! Thanks mate! Actually, I was little worried that I would piss her off as I am not as good as her. Hehe. Since she didn’t show it, so I should assume it is fine. Coach stepped up the weights training so now we are dealing with heavier weights and more repetition per exercise. Oh he has included a new exercise which really KILLED me. I guess u would know what state was I in on the following day.

There came sat. I was aching terribly and I wanted so much to slack n laze on the bed forever. However, I didn’t. I went to mas’s house early to watch dvd! We caught THE GAME PLAN. I know I am very very slow. Apologies! (: after that, we watched 27DRESSES. Well, we didn’t finish it as cy wanted us to leave the house and head to tm. The original plan wasn’t like that though. I forgive cy for disrupting us. HAHAHAHA. Well, she has valid reason. What’s more she has already gotten her punishment. She didn’t get to play bridge that day. Hehe. We met up with bel and cy at tm as told. Shortly, cy had to leave and fiz had arrived. We headed back to mas house while cy went to bugis to met up w her family for a short prayer at the temple. We had our usual game at mas house! What can beat that man! I sooo love the people who taught me this addictive game! About an hour later, cy called and bel said, “okay. Last two and we’ll move” hmm guess what? Mas receive a sms from cy that she was at Tanah Merah and Tanah Merah is about two stops from tampines! –screams we were lucky that she was patient. Hahaha.

We went to bali thai for dinner! The food was okay and fiz was worried that we wouldn’t be able to finish all the dishes! Cy said, “don’t worry. You have mas and van here.” It made us sound like we eat A LOT. After dinner, bel and fiz left. The rest of us walked around actually I was the social escort that day. Cy was asking mas about med interview. We left the place at around 9. I was sooo tired.

I received a call from qing to meet at 401. I went though I was really tired. Those asses didn’t tell me that we might be going to sham’s house to watch movie. I insisted on going back to bathe before heading to sham’s place. The gals were nice as they waited for me at the playground. (: sham is the evil gal who tried to persuade them not to wait for me! Well, I still love you sham.

Sun was meeting bf to penisular for stick hunting. We went to champion first and as usual, they refused to let me hit around with the sticks. They should seriously learn from the other shop! the other shop only has grays stick. I tried 7000 again and I really like it. The price was the problem I thought. I called daddy and told him about it. He told me to get it!! Hehehehehe. How happy can I get?!! I was taken aback when I heard that. If only that someone else realises this as well. Zz. I went back to the shop and tried to bargain. Apparently, my bargaining skills aren’t good. He asked me to try 4000. The feel is different and I wasn’t comfortable with it. I don’t if it is because I have already eyed on 7000 so whatever stick i tried it didnt feel nice. :( I bought 7000 in the end. I went home after that as bf was very tired.

Anyway, I am knocking offffff..byebye(:

Monday, May 05, 2008

Posted by van at 5:59 PM