Sunday, November 05, 2006
whenever i rmb tat i hav to work vvv hard for gp, bio n econ, i feel sooo SCARED! it's not sth tat i wld do n i like to do bt i hav to do it. i do not like it at all, not a single bit.
mayb going to poly will end all ALL OF THIS.
by going poly will mean tat i let my dad dwn, my uncle n my teachers esp my ct. i will hav to forsake my team mates who are stil trying to get things right so tat we can enter the finals n invite sir to OUR FINALS. bt it's my future. im the one going thru this. i feel miserable. i DO NOT LIKE THIS. why cant i be vvv smart so tat i can slack mre than working more. im jus soo freaking useless. tat's y i love hockey n be alone. sometimes it is reali good to be alone where u can jus sit der n relax. cry out loud n nobody will noe. no one will know tat u r weak. u will hurt no one.everyone will jus think tat u r happy with the way things are. isnt tat great?
im feeling sick now. hopefully it will not affect my op tml!im reali exhausted.
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Posted by van at 9:40 PM