Success is never final
Failure is never fatal
Courage is what counts
Friday, May 19, 2006
RJ HOCKEY GALS LOST TO SA HOCKEY GALS BY FLICKS (SUDDEN DEATH) ON THE 17TH OF MAY AT DELTA. AS A RESULT, THEY ARE OUT OF THE COMPETITION FOR THAT GOLD THEY HAVE BEEN WANTING SINCE THE SEASON HAS STARTED.
yep, we r playing against nj 4 3rd n 4th placing. i feel tat im a failure.im a national palyer bt im nt calm enuff to tk the pressure. i noe when i feel nervous n scared, i wun be able to play well! it had happened to me twice before the semis. one against MI another against NJ. i reali hate that feeling! i din wan it to happen to me for the semis. but, guess wat? it did!
since the day had started, i had been trying to stay happy and forget abt the nervousness n fear tat i felt. i listened to my mp3 all day til it died on me. i need to listen to gospel songs jus b4 my match. sadly, my mp3 died on me jus b4 the match. despite of that, i borrowed my fren's mp3 which has gospel songs, hoping it wld hav the same effect. however, it wasnt. it was a complete different feeling. usually i wld feel much mre confident to tk up the challenge bt that day i cldnt feel it at all. i knew sth wasnt rite so i sang the chorus of a gospel song to myself. again, hoping it wld work. however, it din. when i was doing basic wif rachel, i cld feel my legs shaking. from that moment onwards, i knew im not goin to perform.
as ian had told me to put whatever worries outside the pitch once i stepped onto it, so i did. i reali did. all that was on my mind was to win sa. i played right wing den to right half coz sir wanted me to stop all the sa's long ball to their forwards. i was shocked when he put me der. i din noe hw high i shld go so i stayed rather low. aft like 5-10 mins later, he put me up front again. my left calf was cramping again. this time rd, i din ask to be sub out. i jus continued playing. it was stil nil all at half time.
talked abt the match den went bac into the pitch for 2nd half. i played center forward. our attacks were moslty on the left so i was on the left most of the times too. i cldnt pull the ball to my strong side. it din only happen once but many. i got the ball nicely n got tackled jus bcoz i cldnt pull. i was frustrated bt i din show it. i knew tat was the result of the shaking legs b4 the match. i jus calmed myself dwn n tried to stop their long balls to their forwards. i did stop a few of them. sir put me bac on the right wing i tink he wanted us to attack on the right mre bt somehw it din reali happen.the few times when we attacked on the right, i dribbled all the way into the D and got tackled. i dribbled past their main defenders n was one-on-one wif their keeper bt grace was fast. she was on me again when i wanted to turn my body n tk a shot. sigh. aft a long battle, sa scored a short corner goal. i was vv scared as i knew that der wasnt much time left. sa was deliberately wasting time. they took a hell long time to pick the ball to tk their 16-yard hit. luckily, laila got the ball, dribbled into their D, did a reverse n scored. ais n i lied onto of laila. we were all vv happy. it was like a second chance to win the match. den, the whistle was blown. it was 1-1 so we had to play golden goal.
we den rested a while and played golden goal, 5 min each half. we were in their half all 10min bt we stil din score. flicks was nx. i was the 5th flicker. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. i wasnt confident to tk it at all. i dun hav the experience. i wasnt trained. i took it and i missed it. we stil cldnt tell who was the winner aft 5 flicks frm each sch. den sudden death. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. bt stil, it came. worst of all, i had to put it in if nt we r out. again, i missed it. it hit the post!! i was vv disappointed n upset so i threw my stick n i wanted to run out of delta. jus den, i saw my dad n mum @ the enterance. i ran towards my dad n hugged him. i cldnt stop crying. ian n a few others came to console me. they brought me bac into the pitch. every1 was dwn. some were trying hard not to cry while some jus like me, burst into tears. sir gav us a min to cry. i din cry during that one min.i jus lied on the floor. nx, we sang sch song on the pitch wif the supporters. tears jus filled my eyes once again n threatened to fall. i teared again. i jus cldnt stop crying. hugs frm team mates n frens stil din work. i jus kept crying. mr loo, my ct, called me n consoled me. he told me that he watched my match. he said that he was proud of me.
i tried to cheer up bt it din work. i jus cant. it was all filled with sadness. we went for team dinner. i din feel like eating. partly bcoz i was sad n i vomited. i ate in the end coz sir was sitting right in front of me. i went bac home wif a heavy heart. i jus hate myself for nt being able to overcome the fear. i wanted soo much to prove to dem that we nt only hav stamina, we hav skills n we r beta than dem. they were ego b4 the match against us. they said we only hav stamina. i wanted the gold! i wanted to meet vj n try to win the gold 4 the sch. i wanted to prove that we r beta than vj to those who always say we will lose to vj if we play against dem. i believe that we can do it. sadly, we r not given a chance to prove it. I PROMISE THAT MY TEAM WILL COME BACK STRONG TO WIN THE GOLD NEXT YEAR. jus watch it.
i went to sch ytd. i felt sad. i dared nt cry in front of my team mates. i stood behind my class during assembly n started tearing. i din wan to cry bt i jus cldnt hold it any longer. barney saw n he came n stood beside me, asking me not to cry. sir said that i was completely marked out ytd n he cld feel that we all wanted to win. i went to LT looking sad. sue lynn n joanne spoke to me n hugged me. tearing jus kept falling. the guys in my cls dared nt sit in front of me coz i was crying. i attended chem lect n tutorial ytd only. i went to look for the gals aft chem tutorial. i sat at the hockey table n started tearing again. i jus cldnt stop dem from falling. we went town to rot den went for the guys' semis. i eyed on a few clothes. i wish i had unlimited amt of money to spend. maybe it wld make me feel beta. anw the guys won Mi 9-0. pau was der too. during the half time, she spoke to us. i felt bad. RJ gals were 2nd last yr. tis yr wif the dsas we had to play 4 3rd n 4th placing. what is tis man?! the j3s wanted us to win the gold too. we disappointed dem. i hate it!!sigh
yep, we r playing against nj 4 3rd n 4th placing. i feel tat im a failure.im a national palyer bt im nt calm enuff to tk the pressure. i noe when i feel nervous n scared, i wun be able to play well! it had happened to me twice before the semis. one against MI another against NJ. i reali hate that feeling! i din wan it to happen to me for the semis. but, guess wat? it did!
since the day had started, i had been trying to stay happy and forget abt the nervousness n fear tat i felt. i listened to my mp3 all day til it died on me. i need to listen to gospel songs jus b4 my match. sadly, my mp3 died on me jus b4 the match. despite of that, i borrowed my fren's mp3 which has gospel songs, hoping it wld hav the same effect. however, it wasnt. it was a complete different feeling. usually i wld feel much mre confident to tk up the challenge bt that day i cldnt feel it at all. i knew sth wasnt rite so i sang the chorus of a gospel song to myself. again, hoping it wld work. however, it din. when i was doing basic wif rachel, i cld feel my legs shaking. from that moment onwards, i knew im not goin to perform.
as ian had told me to put whatever worries outside the pitch once i stepped onto it, so i did. i reali did. all that was on my mind was to win sa. i played right wing den to right half coz sir wanted me to stop all the sa's long ball to their forwards. i was shocked when he put me der. i din noe hw high i shld go so i stayed rather low. aft like 5-10 mins later, he put me up front again. my left calf was cramping again. this time rd, i din ask to be sub out. i jus continued playing. it was stil nil all at half time.
talked abt the match den went bac into the pitch for 2nd half. i played center forward. our attacks were moslty on the left so i was on the left most of the times too. i cldnt pull the ball to my strong side. it din only happen once but many. i got the ball nicely n got tackled jus bcoz i cldnt pull. i was frustrated bt i din show it. i knew tat was the result of the shaking legs b4 the match. i jus calmed myself dwn n tried to stop their long balls to their forwards. i did stop a few of them. sir put me bac on the right wing i tink he wanted us to attack on the right mre bt somehw it din reali happen.the few times when we attacked on the right, i dribbled all the way into the D and got tackled. i dribbled past their main defenders n was one-on-one wif their keeper bt grace was fast. she was on me again when i wanted to turn my body n tk a shot. sigh. aft a long battle, sa scored a short corner goal. i was vv scared as i knew that der wasnt much time left. sa was deliberately wasting time. they took a hell long time to pick the ball to tk their 16-yard hit. luckily, laila got the ball, dribbled into their D, did a reverse n scored. ais n i lied onto of laila. we were all vv happy. it was like a second chance to win the match. den, the whistle was blown. it was 1-1 so we had to play golden goal.
we den rested a while and played golden goal, 5 min each half. we were in their half all 10min bt we stil din score. flicks was nx. i was the 5th flicker. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. i wasnt confident to tk it at all. i dun hav the experience. i wasnt trained. i took it and i missed it. we stil cldnt tell who was the winner aft 5 flicks frm each sch. den sudden death. i prayed hard that it wldnt come to me. bt stil, it came. worst of all, i had to put it in if nt we r out. again, i missed it. it hit the post!! i was vv disappointed n upset so i threw my stick n i wanted to run out of delta. jus den, i saw my dad n mum @ the enterance. i ran towards my dad n hugged him. i cldnt stop crying. ian n a few others came to console me. they brought me bac into the pitch. every1 was dwn. some were trying hard not to cry while some jus like me, burst into tears. sir gav us a min to cry. i din cry during that one min.i jus lied on the floor. nx, we sang sch song on the pitch wif the supporters. tears jus filled my eyes once again n threatened to fall. i teared again. i jus cldnt stop crying. hugs frm team mates n frens stil din work. i jus kept crying. mr loo, my ct, called me n consoled me. he told me that he watched my match. he said that he was proud of me.
i tried to cheer up bt it din work. i jus cant. it was all filled with sadness. we went for team dinner. i din feel like eating. partly bcoz i was sad n i vomited. i ate in the end coz sir was sitting right in front of me. i went bac home wif a heavy heart. i jus hate myself for nt being able to overcome the fear. i wanted soo much to prove to dem that we nt only hav stamina, we hav skills n we r beta than dem. they were ego b4 the match against us. they said we only hav stamina. i wanted the gold! i wanted to meet vj n try to win the gold 4 the sch. i wanted to prove that we r beta than vj to those who always say we will lose to vj if we play against dem. i believe that we can do it. sadly, we r not given a chance to prove it. I PROMISE THAT MY TEAM WILL COME BACK STRONG TO WIN THE GOLD NEXT YEAR. jus watch it.
i went to sch ytd. i felt sad. i dared nt cry in front of my team mates. i stood behind my class during assembly n started tearing. i din wan to cry bt i jus cldnt hold it any longer. barney saw n he came n stood beside me, asking me not to cry. sir said that i was completely marked out ytd n he cld feel that we all wanted to win. i went to LT looking sad. sue lynn n joanne spoke to me n hugged me. tearing jus kept falling. the guys in my cls dared nt sit in front of me coz i was crying. i attended chem lect n tutorial ytd only. i went to look for the gals aft chem tutorial. i sat at the hockey table n started tearing again. i jus cldnt stop dem from falling. we went town to rot den went for the guys' semis. i eyed on a few clothes. i wish i had unlimited amt of money to spend. maybe it wld make me feel beta. anw the guys won Mi 9-0. pau was der too. during the half time, she spoke to us. i felt bad. RJ gals were 2nd last yr. tis yr wif the dsas we had to play 4 3rd n 4th placing. what is tis man?! the j3s wanted us to win the gold too. we disappointed dem. i hate it!!sigh
Posted by van at 11:28 AM
ESCAPE
As:
*adelyn
*andy
Bs: *belicia *bernie
Cs: *chiawyee *clarence
Es: *elin
Hs: *hossain n gang *huiping
Is: *IDIOTS_9 *ivy
Js: *jasmine *jazreel
Ks: *kenny *kenny (3D)
Ls: *laila *laura
Ms: *mastura *melissa *min
Qs: *qing
Rs: *rachel *raffleshockey
Ss: *sham *shameless fat *sok kiang *syafizah
Ts: *tong
Ws: *wei ting
Ys: *yanting
Xs: *xinni
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