Wednesday, February 22, 2006
today is like the 1mth n 1 day aft we told each other tat we r interested in each other.i stil rmb hw i felt tat day.i went 4 my 1st ever rj trng feeling vv vexed.i msged him wen i was on the way bac hm frm trng.i was tinking whether to end the relationship wif my guy.tat day wen i reached hm, i felt tat i shld leave my guy.tis is bcoz i dun wana tis to drag any further.i felt relived wen i broke up wif my guy.nt long later, big bully replied my msg.i told him everytin abt my lovelife except tat i lied tat i had a crush on one of my classmates.suddenly he replied i dun like u.i was kinda shocked.i tot he knew tat i like him n he was telling mi tat he doesnt like mi.aft tat i tink again.mayb he din like wat i was doin.hav a bf bt fall 4 another guy.i took it s the 2nd 1.i replied him n explained myself.aft his match he replied tat he was crazy b4 a match so the "i dun like u" dun mean anythin.he kept askin mi hu i like n i suspected tat he like mi.i told him tat i dun hav a crush 4 my classmate n he told mi tat i caused him to be affected in the game.lol..i was damn happy wen he said tat.haha..by den i was pretty sure tat he like mi.he forced mi to tell him hu's the guy i had a crush on so i told him n he admitted tat he like mi too.i was vvvvvvv happy den.if nt 4 tat mistk i had made, mayb we r tgt nw.hai..:(
i tot he wasnt in sch on tues.i was kinda shocked to c him wen i was walkin towards the life wif my fren.i wanted to say hi bt i din.i was kinda shy n my fren was toking to mi.i duno y wen i saw him tat day, my heart kinda skip a beat.i wonder y i dun dare to tok to him wen ppl we both r der.mayb bcoz i usually dun tok to him wen dey r ard so wen dey r ard i dun tok to him @ all.nt even a hi.
sch's alrite these few days.i failed my 1st ever bio test!!i got like 17/35.i cld hav passed the test.anw, i din reali study much 4 it.ohya.i got 5 marks deducted 4 toking during collection of the test paper!!!haha..
i went 4 nat trng ytd.it was crazy.we had to do 200m within 40s for 5times.we had rest 4 like 20-30 min.we did basic n 2-on-1 during tat period of time.aft which, roy told us our positions n the game plan.i played forward wif the seniors.i was vv scared upon knowing tat im playin wif dem @ the forward line.pau asked mi nt to be scared, jus play my game.i felt kinda ok aft tat.i tink juz like the 10 or 15 min, my legs' muscles were vv tight.it was vv painful!the same thing happened to mi tat morning when i was trying to run to sch as i was goin to be late.anw, i endured til the 20min was up.i rested for 10min or so n i went to do beep test.i stop @ lvl 8.haha.so lousy.the same thing happened: tight legs' muscles.hai.
dahlia gav us tis letter sayin tat our fitness arent gd enuff.if we miss trng, we hav to join the men's trng!!omg.i dun wan.it's vv demoralising to run wif dem.if i reali nid to run, i rather do it in sch on my own.mayb i can do it on my own on thurs b4 trng.hai..tis is so annoying!
belly n her guy r stil so loving n swit!!dey r goin two yrs!!!tat's like long!im jus so jealous of her!haha ((:
big bully,
we r kinda distant nw, do u realise?r u like giving mi space to look 4 the better guy?if yes, i dun like tat idea.bt if u reali want it tis way den i'll go wif it.i guess u nid tat space to look 4 the better gal.do u stil rmb wat u said tat day wen our feelings were made known to each other?u wanted to know if i reali hav feelings 4 u.u wanted my ans fast so we can bond tgt b4 the release of results.besides tat u said tat the ball is in my possession. whether to hit it or nt is up to mi.it was kinda funi.im givin u bac those word: the ball is in ur possession nw. whether to hit it or nt it's entirely up to u.ohya.i always denied tat u r swit.nw, i wana thank u 4 being swit to mi durin tat short period of time.u r always being surrounded by lots of ants!!!(:
Posted by van at 5:49 PM