Wednesday, November 11, 2009

alright been feeling realllllly unwell these days. sigh.. its timr i hav to do serious mugging but my body fails me. zz. totally hate it. had reallly bad dizzy spell on mon night and felt really weak last night. i am still feeling sick. down w flu and a lil sore throat. my eyes feel like they are goin to pop out anytime and im aching all over. zz. AHHH. i hav decided to slp so that i pray that i will be in better health tml. if not good game.

on a lighter note, the bims will be meetinggg on fri.cant wait!(:

bel asked me ytd if he seriously hasnt been contacting/ignoring me. she said she still refuse to believe that he has become like that. well all i can say is that i probably aint the girl in his heart anymore. i am jus a passerby in his life. i hate it when i get all so emotional at home. zz. i will wwin this war. jus wait.

Posted by van at 11:30 PM

Sunday, November 08, 2009

i am baffled as to why this series of events that have happened to me thus far happened aft we broke up? was he my lucky star or a relatively impenetrable shield? it beats me.

Posted by van at 10:09 AM

Saturday, November 07, 2009

a rather emotional night. i actually msged him. aft awhile, i realised theres no pt in getting him here. wat can he do to make the situation better? why do i need to trouble someone else when its sth that i shld handle it myself irregardless of its magnitude? to prevent anyone to say sth inappropriate or put ppl in an uncomfortable positions, i have decided that i will seek no one for comfort, console.. wateva. i will go thru it myself even if its more than wat i can tk.

i will trouble no one.

Posted by van at 10:01 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009

booo jus hav this sudden urge to blog.

i really need to buck up and i miss all my frens. been caught off guard at times:(

oh well life goes on! im really surprised how im able to make each lab memorable. lolheh
tata

Posted by van at 11:44 PM

Sunday, November 01, 2009

hmm jus wana blog a lil.

im lagging pretty badly. i dun seem to hav the drive anymore and its 2weeks to exam!omg. how howhowwww!zz. all im feeling is tiredd:( had a real longggggg week. 3tests in a day coupled w a 7hr long meeting. insane! i really really miss my frens:(

list of things to be completed tml:
e-lect on protection grp
type expt 7 and 8
needa understand 213n 212!omg!:(

Posted by van at 12:58 AM

Monday, October 26, 2009

emo-ed abt that matter again. i really dun wan to think abt u but i cant hlp it. u jus keep popping into my mind no matter how busy i am. looks like my plan to forget u by being busy has failed. i duno. ARGGH. i hate this. why why must this happen?:(

jus ranting. im fine

Posted by van at 2:52 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

okay i quick post before i go n lie on my bed. i had abt 2hrs of slp last night so im feeling a lil tired. sch's been real busy. i cannot tk it. ahh. partly because i hav jcrc responsibilties that i have to fulfill. i am really really tired.

anw i tired to tok to him but he ignored me. forget it. i will not try to initiate a conversion w him. i will and hav to steer clear of him. mayb i shld jus delete him off my msn since we are no longer frens? i duno. i will not deny that he still occupies a rather impt place in my heart thus his act hurt me quite a bit. BUT i will not break cos i noe i am STRONGER than this.

to him:
if this is really what u want, so be it. we will jus be strangers for the rest of our lives. u go ur way, i go my way. we will jus be invisible to each other.